Things have been taking a good turn. I can tell that the space that I've been giving H has been good for him.
I actually hung out with his sister last night and had a really good talk with her. She said she hasn't talked to him in a long time about anything but she gets the feeling that he wants to work on things between us. I can feel that from him too. I had a lot of anxiety on my way over to her house but it felt so good to be able to see her again. She is one of my favorite people in the world... but obviously I have to keep my distance because she reminds me too much of my H. And she totally gets that.
H dropped of the kids today and actually stayed around for a little bit and talked with me. It was really nice to feel him not seem so rushed and NEEDING to get away from me. And we did end with a hug which was instigated by him again. Lots of small little things happening... but I hope it keeps up this way.
I read almost the entire time while my kids were gone a book called Parents, Kids, and Power Struggles. Wow, if you want to learn how to connect with your little children, this is one I would recommend. I'm already feeling changes between us. I really missed them while they were gone and it helps me appreciate them so much more. That is definitely a blessing inside all of this madness.
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
