(((BF))) I think this trip will not only be good for your kids, but for you as well.
I can definitely relate to this:
Originally Posted By: barely floating
there were moments when the kids were asleep.. the tears would just stream down my face as i was racing down the highway. i felt so much pain.. anger.. frustration.. i kept hearing H's words to me and i was so hurt. and i thought about this.. i have been through adversities in the past but i never expected those people to protect me. in the past, i had been so hesitant in relationships because i never wanted to end up divorced like my parents (and their's was not an amicable one). so when i met H, i took a chance.. and trusted he would not hurt me.. and when he said what he did.. it was the most hurtful thing anyone has ever said to me because i trusted him w/ my heart.
But then I think, if I hadn’t trusted, where would I be? What kind of person would I be? I would have missed out on the good times we did have. I wouldn’t take those moments back for anything. Even if my M doesn’t make it. You wouldn’t have your wonderful children to hug and kiss, and love on. I don’t have that, and can’t imagine how incredibly strong you have to be to protect your kids during this kind of situation. You are to be saluted for that! (I really need to figure out a salute emoticon. LOL)
Originally Posted By: barely floating
there was a point when i was driving.. i was listening to il divo... looking up at the grey skies.. and just thought to myself.. there is so much beauty all around me. my tears changed from sadness to awe. in that moment, i felt like my life was so insignificant. that my situation was so minor compared to many others before me. yes i was hurting.. but i was here.. surrounded by beauty and knowing that my children were healthy and with me.
The fact that you could change your thinking when all around you it seems your world is falling apart is AMAZING. Keep that. Hold tight to it.
