Thanks for the kind words Accuray & Mimivac. Out of control is right, it is taking every fabric of my being to not talk to my W and simply ask her if she is proceeding with the D and if she intends to move out.
The other night my wife told me she was "F**cked Up" and that I was crazy for wanting to be with her. I simply listened and stated that M like anything has its ups and downs. Left it at that. She knows that I love her so it would do no good for me to tell her that.
Part of me is waiting for the other proverbial foot to drop. It feels hopeless and that her mind is made up already.
Then I tell myself that I need to press forward with my 180's and my GAL (currently riding a stationary bike as I write this).
My relationship with the kids is stronger than it has ever been so that is something I can be proud of.
