Addiction of any sort breeds nothing but projection. At teh end of the day can you say you did your best?

If so, then you should be able to lay your head on the pillow at night and sleep good.

It sounds to me like you did what was in your control.

If you find something that you could have done, learn from it.

You can't redo the past, but you can change the present and form the future.

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