Know too that a chemical reaction is happening in your brain that is making you feel this way.
When W pulls away, you feel out of control. Feeling out of control is very closely tied to feeling "in love". When you're dating, you feel some degree of out of control because you're putting yourself on the line and don't know how the other person will react. That's what makes you feel so much passion. You're getting that same chemical release now, so it's making you feel more "in love" than you have in a long time because your control has been lost.
You can combat that by doing other things that make you feel in control. Exercise, lose weight, play an instrument, do something where you can chart progress and see improvement. When you see how you can control your own destiny, it will offset some of your chemical reaction.
Keep posting, find someone to talk to who is not your W. Let it all out, work through it, but keep to the path. Detach detach detach.
Accuray
Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11 Start Reconcile: 8/15/11 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced) In a New Relationship: 3/2015
