Man I think today has made me realize I am going to have to seek out real professoinal help to deal with this. I have been seeing an IC (clinical social worker)who was also our MC so she knew my W and I go in there and vent but it is not helping me feel any better. I am at the point I just need these feelings to go away, be it via prescription, hypnosis, or something. Alcohol used to serve as a temporary fix for this but I am no longer going there. I feel like a cement mixer has been dropped on my head at month 7, I am struggling to do my job. All I want to do is call her or see her. I'm going to seek out a full blown psychologist tonight.
Man I honestly didn't think there was any lower to go with this but at the 7 month mark I think I have hit rock bottom here. All I want to do is talk to her and I can't and it's literally driving me crazy...
me 38 W 30 T 3 M in 05/2010 Separated 08/2011 Stephchildren (all hers) SS17, SS12, SD8 I filed 8/27, she countered I filed response 9/5 Anxiously waiting on the judge!
