taking the time to watch the wave

[breakdownbill]

[quote=barely floating]

I question God's plans. I felt I had tried so hard to detach and leave the outcome up to him. And i wonder, what did I do to deserve this and how much more will I have to endure. Tonight, I really question how much strength is left in me.

The time away will do me some good. To focus on my beautiful kids.. And to do some more soul searching. [/quote]

Hi Barely

I too am really feeling for you reading this, and I'm realising that I probably will have to face up to the situation you find yourself in right now, and the time will come for me to decide whether to carry on hoping or to carry on with my life w/o W.

My advice for you...

You really do need to focus on the last part of your post. Your kids will love you forever - unconditionally - never forget that. If you can be strong for them and just focus on having fun with them - I know what you are feeling now will get easier for you over the next few days and help you get through this.

Hang in there and try to stay positive

Bill