Oh Barely, I hurt for you right now!! I'm so new at this I don't have good advice, but I totally get your anger and hurt. Don't feel bad about losing it. You have worked sooo hard and after awhile it all builds up. I get the hate part. I was there a few days ago and your words helped me. Please use your trip as time to ponder and try to find the joy with your kids. I'm totally feeling for you tonite.
