So sorry to hear that you are so sad right now. But don't beat yourself up for it, though.
It really doesn't matter if it's been 13 days or 13 months. We all need to heal at our own pace and you know you are in that process, but there will still be very sad moments like the one you are having right now.
Hang in there!
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D