What I apologized for is the choice to stay in the bed. I sorta just tossed that in there with the stuff I had thought through because you had suggested it. I think it was ill-conceived, and I should be able to admit when I am wrong. I have no feelings for the bed. While it may be indicative of other things, it has always been her bed, to me, and I was her prince whom she (used to) invite into her private chamber. I think it just clanged the door shut on her jail cell too much. I also secured the keys to the car (she was hysterical) and we are having some acute financial difficulties. She felt very cornered, like even getting out wasn't an option. I don't think it was good for me to put her in that situation (though yes, she contributed). Hatred, like disgust, is something I want to stay away from evoking in her towards me.
