Journaling…

No real excitement over the weekend.

Friday, I left work early to run some errands and take a nap. I was semi-asleep when H got home. He was on the phone when he came in. It did cross my mind that he was talking to OW (his MO is normally to talk to her to/from work), but I was too tired to dwell on it. He did come to the bedroom door and look in on me. I’m sure he was surprised I was home and already asleep because he asked me if I had run all of my errands once I got up.

He had eaten a bowl of cereal while I was asleep, but offered to go get me dinner once I woke up. I told him I’d just eat a sandwich for now. He did end up going out later on to get dinner. We just sat around watching NCAA basketball, and talking occasionally.

We did have a conversation that would normally have turned into an argument Friday night. We were just talking – normal, random conversation – and his tone sounds like he’s irritated or agitated or something. So I asked him if I was irritating him or getting on his nerves. He said no. I said well your tone is saying something different. He said no he was fine. Not sure what that was about, and I did think about it for maybe another minute, and then moved on. So a 180 for me! Ordinarily, I would have gotten an attitude back for no reason, and basically started an argument or made it into something bigger than it was. If he was irritated, that’s on him. Can’t control that.

He ended up staying up really late. But he got up when I left Saturday morning to go get a haircut. Saturday, I GALed for 3 hours – dance rehearsal. So by the time I made it home, I hadn’t eaten, and I was beat. He offered to go get me something to eat. I told him I didn’t really want too much, so I made a sandwich, and we both ended up taking a nap. Way too long of a nap. We both ended up staying up pretty late – Rodney until after 4 am. The only reason I know this is because he was on the computer in our bedroom too, which kept me up until he came to bed.

This was the 2nd night in a row he was up late. Made me think he and OW had a couple of late night text sessions. I don't know for sure, and I didn’t check the phone records (as bad as I wanted to). I just know this is what was happening before I found out he was having an A. He hasn't done it but once I think since I found out.

We were both talking about how tired we were yesterday. He said he couldn’t sleep Saturday night, and ended up watching one of our favorite movies, and that’s what kept him up. I just said okay, and left it at that.

H changed up his haircut on Saturday, and kept rubbing his head - thinking he is SO hot over the weekend. I just know I'm going to find him posing in the mirror. Of course, it is sexy as hell, and makes me want to jump his bones, but I managed to restrain myself this weekend. Not so much this morning. LOL *shrug*

Went to church yesterday, and had a great time. Our performance turned out great! I wasn’t feeling that well afterwards so I came home and slept. (Just so you guys know, before anyone says anything – I LOVE NAPS. Always have. My mother always says my siblings and I will sleep our life away if given the chance. I’m not sleeping to get away from my problems. Well not on a regular basis anyway. LOL) Then there was more basketball, and I went to the grocery story to grab stuff for the week, and dinner.

He’s still offering to do things for me, and being helpful. Sometimes I think it would be better if he wasn't being nice and all that. I know how to respond to that. This other stuff he's doing - I don't even know what to call it - is confusing and kind of annoying.


Me:37
H:GONE

Happy and loving life.