Husband left me...feel hopeless

[breakdownbill]

I'm only just staring to detach and the one big positive for me is the removal of anxiety and pressure I feel about trying so hard to make it work right now. I love my W and although she probably doesn't think I'll ever forgive her about the Affair - I already did. I'm more concerned now with what led to the breakdown of our own R, so I don't make the same mistakes ever again whether I'm lucky enough for my W to give us another go or not.
Until I sort that out in my own head and really GAL - by that I mean GAL doing stuff because you are happy doing it and are not thinking about it. Until I'm at this point I honestly don't think I want any R, even as hard as it is being seperated / detached from my W.