So true HollyAnn, surreal yet comical is the way I am seeing it right now.
Last night, he kissed me out of the blue. I mean somewhat of a passionate kiss.
This morning I said "that is not ok, and can't happen again"
I feel like it is a manipulation and tactic and he claims it is just natural for him and "i am just kissing my wife, we've been together for 20+ years"
He just sent me a text message to apologize, "on top of the many things I am sorry for, I apologize for making matters worse last night. It just felt natural. I am really sorry. No need to reply. I just wanted to state it"
I am not replying
I have plans with some friends tonight and plan to be gone before he leaves. I really don't like to do that too much because the kids will only see me leaving, which is not what I want. He has an upper hand by hanging around all the time. This is the guy who wanted to go out all the time, and I held him back. I just wish he would go already.
He flips from "sorry for what I said (EA) but I didn't cheat on you (PA)" and I tell him I don't believe him. I said it is very unlikely that the only two times he did it were the times I caught him. He denies
In the next breath he is blaming me and saying I am controlling and even telling him what help to get. I asked him if he would consider EE. He said yes but later said he was only doing it for me. I said "don't do it if it is for me, it has to be for you"
He managed to find and meet with the seamstress making our boat cover this week, but can't seem to get an appt with a therapist or even get someone on the phone. Our priorities are clearly different
I am continuing on my path, have an appt with an IC and also the atty this week, and will continue to make my plan
