WAW told me she doesn't want to be married pt3

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So this weekend was a very very busy one for kids and I. Technically had kids from Thursday through tonight after dinner. Friday night took kids out to dinner then haircuts and into toys r us to get a new car seat for my daughter. Saturday we had a play date with one of my sons friends. We went to the philly zoo for a good bit of the day. They had a lot of fun. Dinner with mommom and my brother then some quick clothes shopping since its warmer now followed up with my neice and nephew being dropped off to play for a few hours. Sunday my father in law went with kids and I to Flemington NJ to a model train place. Another full weekend. My father in law was telling me that they might adopt a dog and if they do he might need me to watch him over mothers day weekend. See he is going on a bowling trip and my wife and mother in law are going up to NY for the weekend. I told him I am not sure considering that I am not around like I used to be and don't want a dog who does not know me to take care of him. This makes me realize how much do they really know about there own daughter being with a drunk? I feel like having a talk with my in laws and thanking them for sticking by me, explaining to them that I don't know what is going to happen, I know what I want but she and I are not on the same path right now. They have been great in laws and that I am looking on dating sites. I still have yet to go out on any dates.
She also wants to try to get together to talk next weekend.

Dropped kids off after dinner and they wanted to show my wife the stuffed animals they got. She asked where did you get them and they said zoo. She was shocked and came looking for me asking if there was anything that she needed to know that they did. Does she think I am trying to buy them off or something. Told her I got a good deal off a radio station for a family 4 pack of tickets. Seems like she still doesn't trust me. Yet I am in my old home and things are changing there. She got the dbag to take down the closet doors and put a regular door into the closet. Something we had planned but never got to. So yet again my goal is set in stone I will be in my own home sometime in the summer or fall.

My son didn't want to leave tonight but when I got him home he was ok. Yesterday my daughter said she missed mommy which is usual. She then said she missed me also. I told her I was right here she then said no I miss you at home. This out of a three year olds mouth.