Baby Steps, Baby Steps..... Not sure where they are leading me.

Today I was able to express my plans to move on and not get emotional. I asked my kids to come over tonight and we could make homemade pizza. (Checked with H first, in case he didn't feel like all the noise and crazy that come with everyone being here.)

I was on the phone with my oldest son firming up the plans and I said to him that I wanted him to look at some houses I saw in the area of CA I keep wanting to move to. I was near my H and he heard me talking. I told my son about some of my options, and my son said he would talk to his W about her thoughts.

My H then asked me about my conversation. I told him what I'm thinking. Then he said something about our DIL. I told him point blank: "She is upset because we are splitting up and she wants to move someplace where she can see her mom, too."

H said: "But she doesn't get along with her mom." I agreed and just said she needs to live close enough to visit more often.

But I was proud of being able to say these things, and I guess I really am moving on. Heck, what choice do I have. As these things are playing out in my hear I have stupid lines from songs playing in my head.

I keep hearing "In a Big Country" the line "But you can't stay here with every single hope you had shattered."

I have many frinds here, my quilting friends. But most of them are way older than me. My friends in CA, where I went to high school and college, are my age and I think in the long run would be better for me.

I went to a small high school, and we were very close. I have been in charge of the reunions all these years, still have kept in contact with many of them.

Anyway, thanks everyone for keeping repeating the messages. The things I need to do are finally becoming clear.

Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32
D final 9/12
Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!