I didn't see it coming...but now I see everything

[breakdownbill]

I've had a great day today - took the kids to see my Mum this morning for a couple of hours - then met W at her Mum's with the kids and spent some time there. We promised the kids we would take them to spaceworld - which is like a big indoor play area with a cafe for parents. We where there for 2 and a half hours & me and the W got on great - we even made each other laugh a few times. The conversation wasn't the least bit awkward or one sided. There was absolutely no mention of R or anything like that. W went to bed shortly after kids went to bed, but before she went to bed carried on an earlier joke about one of her friends on FB and we were both laughing loads, when she went to bed we said good night to each other. I did feel a bit down after she went to bed, but didn't let it show. I'm detaching, not pursuing, but getting on great with my W again when we talk. It feels like we are friends again. I'm not gonna blow this by talking about anything to do with sitch, just gonna take this slowly. It's ironic that when we were trying the last couple of weeks there was so much pressure it was stifling us. Now that we are not trying to make R work (consciously on both parts) it feels so much easier to get along without any anxiety of upsetting each other(if that makes any sense).
If the penny ever drops with my W, that we are still best friends and that when we ML it is great and that we are so good together as a family, she'll realise what she's giving up on. I just hope that when she realises it, it's not too late and I feel the same way about my W. There is just no time frame on this or any guarantee that my WAW (Confused W) will ever change her mind. But there will always be hope and a place in my heart for my W regardless of what happens.

Got my 1st hour long Couselling session tomorrow, hope it goes well and that I get on with them.

I'll keep journalling, thanks for listening and for all the advice.

Bill