Picture the person you want to be and start moving toward that. Begin to state directly to yourself what you want as well as what you don't want.
I will be seriously making a list about this in my journal today. Thank you...
H came to pick up the kids today. He looked really good and happy. It's times like these that remind me why I'm going through so much to keep us together. He is so worth it. We really have such a great little family together. I know he must feel this.
He has mentioned thoughts of getting a D (last time he mentioned this was the end of Jan.) but has never filed and for that I feel really blessed. I think he realizes just as much as I do that we have a lot to lose if we call it quits now.
We had to do some adjusting with car seats for the kids before he left so I went out to his car to help him with that. Then I went around to all of the kids to give them all their hugs and kisses and he waited behind me to give me a hug when I was done. That made me happy. Babysteps.
I am feeling good right now. I am excited to have a couple days without the kids to read these books that I've purchased and to continue to work out. At first, giving him the kids for as long as I was, was killing me. However, I was still living in our house by myself and I'm now living with my mom which just helps ease the pain of feeling lonely. Especially at night. I feel very lucky that my mom has been here for me at such a hard time.
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
