I realise that my thinking is still focused on my H.
I have changed my attitude and focus a lot, I feel. Much more at peace with the idea that he's truly gone and that I need to think only about a life that involves me and the kids.
But part of my sadness at the moment is realising how much of a hole he has dug for himself by taking up with OW semi-publicly again.
I'll get over it, but finding out that he was going away with her for a holiday (my surmise, but pretty sure) has made me realise how difficult it's going to be for him (and me) ever to come back from his current choices. Hence my ruminations on how/if WASs overcome the shame involved.
