the code system is an incredible way to communicate with S13. My heart breaks for S13 and for the rest of your family to have to go through it. I grew up with a violent and abusive alcoholic and I know too well the effects of the illness on a child. Unlike S13, I didn't have someone help me cope with it. It's actually the main reason why I chose to come to this country after high school, I wanted to get as far away from home as possible.
NHM - you might find out thru this sitch that you have carried the demons of that tough childhood with you and it affected how you were in the M. Not a groundbreaking thought here, but this sitch does give a chance to find these things and get past them.
As Labug said, mixing drugs and alcohol is incredibly dangerous. I think you mentioned a few posts ago that your W decided to go off her meds, so I hope she isn't mixing now.
I have no idea at this point what's what. When she was talking to me last night it was like she was drunk dialing me but from two feet away. It was scary as hell....and S13 was not digging it. I read True Grit's story and it spooked me - same trauma...same age...same wild responses...same breakdown...same diagnosis..same type of girl. His story didn't end so well for her. I don't think I will ever have a life with her as H/W going forward...but I will look after her forever. I think about my next relationship and will make sure this doesn't corrupt that by keeping watch for her. You never know though...miracles do happen.
You have a wonderful heart, Rick. Your sitch makes it really hard to DB, yet you've been holding on and going strong for a year. You're doing all the right things...detaching, GALing, and most importantly taking care of your kids and yourself.
Want you to do the same...you obviously have the heart and compassion to do this.
