taking the time to watch the wave

[BFloat]

hopeless.. i don't mind at all! i look for your thread too. there are a few i follow religiously.. just to see how things are going. did you have some sunshine today like we did? actually, it was hailing in the morning then eased up and was warm enough to walk around w/out my coat! wonder how long that will last?

sooooo... have had the most surreal day. H came home about 1130 to go with kids and i to get the new car seats. he was limping a bit and said he had just run down the mountain (good for him for finally doing the things he says he's going to). took a shower and then we packed up the kids to go.

at the mall, we pick out the car seats.. then head over to the grocery store to pick up some stuff, then take S for his haircut. we worked together and it was quite like old times.. except better. because H wasn't all mopey and grumpy like he use to be.. as though it was a huge effort to be happy w/ us.

a couple of odd topics.. H had made shepherd's pie while we were away and when i got back.. he wanted me to try it. he asked several times yesterday (via txt) if i had tried it so this morning.. i thought i better go ahead and do so. and it was good! so when he came today and asked again whether i had tried the darn thing.. i could honestly say.. yes and that it was yummy. that seemed to please him.

while we were out, i bought a bubble tea (if you don't know what it is.. you probably won't get it) because S said he was thirsty. ok.. so H has been sort of avoiding sharing a glass w/ me etc for a while (i don't know.. maybe i have cooties?) so i thought it was funny that he actually took a couple sips of my drink! i mean.. he used the same straw and everything. lol. and you know what? he didn't drop dead.

yesterday, i was looking for the cupboards looking for something to eat. there were 2 packages of instant noodles that are a brand that i like, except that it was a different flavour then i normally get. well.. since they were in the cupboard, i ate one! i figured H had bought them for himself. anyway, today while we were in the grocery store, H asked if i had seen the noodles he had bought me. i said yes.. thanks! didn't tell him it was wrong flavour. it's so weird because just the other day.. i was thinking to myself.. it has been a really long time since H has done or bought anything for me.

today he also wanted me to take some of the money he had exchanged for himself on my trip w/ the kids "just in case".

i live in bizzaro land. can't dwell or even think that these are positives because in january, i honestly didn't think we were at the point where H would say he wanted out of the marriage and i was devastated.

i really don't know what's going through H's mind. maybe he's trying to be nice because i have been nice w/ agreeing to take the kids for the weekend he wanted to go out? when i left today, H said maybe we could talk about our finances again soon. and then he apologized for the way he reacted the last time i wanted to talk about it (he became distant when i mentioned child support).

i know.. it's not my job to figure out what H is thinking. very hard not to do! sigh. thank goodness i'm working the next 2 nights. keeps my mind distracted from the going ons of my M (or lack thereof)