Hi snodderly and beatrice,

All good points. I do feel very much like I'm going round and round. I know talking to him doesn't work. And reading books on fixing my relationship alone don't work. Might have worked 10 years ago......

The biggest, hugest question right now is: What are my long term goals? And that is the problem. I don't know. I actually stayed in bed this morning for 2 hours thinking. Deep thinking. And got no answer.

I need to know how much money I will have to make most of my decisions. And I have avoided getting a job because I don't know where I want to live. The hardest part for me is my adult children. I don't want to be away from them.

I want to be the grandma who is there. Not someone they see yearly. If I co to CA my kids want to come with me. And sadly none of them care much if they see H in the future. MY DIL is very unhappy about all this because her mom has been divorced 5 times. And I think she thought we were a very stable family to marry into.

I have been working on the donate piles. I did figure out one thing. I should get a storage unit and pack away all my keepsakes. One less thing to worry about when the house is being shown!

Okay, thanks for the pep talk. Off to lift weights.


Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32
D final 9/12
Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!