Outside the Scope of This Report Part 3

[WenikiTiki]

I had a bad night last night. I was the one with the spew. Couldn't let go. He came home from work and I told him about what the termite people want.

He tells me he wants it done while he is out of town. I tell him this is a big undertaking and I am not doing it alone.

All the food in the house and anything else you might eat or use in your mouth has to be bagged in speciaal bags. All the cats and dogs have to be taken somewhere else.

And when it is over you get to clean up every dead bug that was killed while killing the termites. A friend of mine said it was a horrible ordeal.

I wanted to wait and tent after we sell, while the house is empty. H is convinced it must be done NOW!

That conversation led me to ask him why he won't go to MC with me. He says our marriage is broken and can't be fixed. I said if it is broken, then we are broken. He says that there is nothing wrong with him. (Guess it is me)

I continue my usless rant and ask him why he thinks he can leave our broken relationship and enter a new one and things will be magically better. He says it just will be.

This is going to make going dark easy. I knew last night not to be in the house with him. I had my gym bag packed with a book, so I could leave early and just read somwhere until yoga class. But when I went to leave I got caught up in the termite discussion.

He and I don't email, I think we should start. I think for now face to face is bad.

I also had noticed that H hasn't called me by my name in ages. And that hurts me. I believe he just really doesn't care about me anymore, I am someone who works for him, in his mind, I get treated like a servant.

Anyway, I hope you all do something fun this weekend!