Indecision and the affair continues (part 3)

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H is on his way back here today. He sent 3 or 4 emails last night. I'm making him stay at his parents house tonight with kids. He sent a couple nice notes about trying to "figure out" weekend plans...I think he was hoping I'd back down and let him stay here.

He then sent a note asking if I wanted to look at houses with him (he may buy a place to move into). Another note, should we buy season ski passes for the family next year? I responded to that note to say I thought that was fine.


I could tell from his notes that he got at most about 3 hours of sleep. I responded to tell him we can talk about this stuff when he's back...and he really should get some rest. He said he can't sleep anymore.

He's only here until 6 am on Sunday...then he flies back to OW's city for work. I feel like he's at risk of some kind of breakdown...but, I'm not going to jump in with reassurances or try to help.

I think he's very good at compartmentalizing too. He knows he's coming back here and he's trying to re-engage with me so that there's a nice little family waiting for him.

As for me...I feel really strong and actually happier than I've felt in a long while. I have a ton of pressure/stress with work and the kids...but I also think we're getting into a good routine. Hoping to do a couple things for myself this weekend when he's back...