Separation, Moved back in, still ILYBNILWY Part 2

[tenbusrider]

Thanks for stopping by, SIAS. Being the best me I can be really is all I can do. It IS hard when everything is so uncertain.

I've started asking myself questions in a different way than I did before, instead of what can I do to reconcile, I ask, what will I do if we D? It isn't pleasant, but it seems to keep me grounded and focused on my own survival. When things start going well between us, that's when my balance gets all messed up. Then it inevitably goes the other direction, and I start asking myself those questions again.

It feels like we should be pro at this balancing act, but it's like we're doing it blindfolded while severely dizzy.