Bill...so sorry that you find yourself at this low point, but I think you knew that is was coming from what I am reading from your posts. My advise would be to get back to DB 101. You said that you have not read the divorce busting books. That is a good place to start
Review the 37 rules
Go back to your short term goals that you listed the other day Continue to post here for support Put the focus back on yourself..you can't and should not try to change your W decision..