When I got home tonight from b-ball and buddies house S13 simply said "code red". That's our code for W is hammered. Phew...you know those drunks that get sappy and maudlin? Yup. Lots of fun. I listened for about two hours until S13 got my signal and rescued me to bring him to the store.
She really was belting out a ton of deep inside stuff and I really paid attention under the circumstances. Trying to put together the 50 different thread topics took some mental gymnastics. I think I got a good sense of what she is trying to tell me.
She doesn't realize this but she has my total support in whatever she does or whereever she goes. I truly want her to succeed, get past her psyche stuff, figure her life out, be content, and wherever she can do that I'm fine. I think she wants to take off and try it on her own, totally solo...something she's never done. I'm sure none of us here can relate to how you do that and leave your kids?
I hope she does go and find her answers. I'll set her up if that's what she needs.
BTW one of the posters here today shared with me how his W had the same trauma at same age, same diagnosis, same issues, same triggering of the bomb as a result as an adult. A horrible story to be sure. It also shoes me that what we are going through is understandable...we're all human...and many suffer similar problems. WE have to do our part even though the hardest thing ever.
