Husband of 17 year out the door in a hurry

[BFloat]

hopeless.. my heart aches for you..

if you need to cry.. then do it. but try not to let the pain and anger defeat you.

i had my moments where i felt utterly defeated. i was truly a mess. and with 2 little ones.. it was a bad scene. but i think the one thing i did right was admitting i needed help. i took it where i could get it. my mom.. my friends.. meds.. it took all that i had to get myself out of that hole. LRT also helped immensely.

i don't know when things "felt" better. i just know it did. one day at a time. one of the things that really lifted my mood at the time was reading the ongoing jokes from the other members. speedos.. hamsters.. whatever!

you can not control your H but you can control you and your choices.

in the beginning, i had to keep busy whenever i wasn't with the kids because it just made me feel sad. the minute i was alone.. i would start spinning things in my head. slowly.. day by day.. i learned to hear myself and rediscovered the person i had lost.

i'm thinking about you. keep posting. you may think no one hears you but we do. take some comfort in that.

((((((( hiw ))))))))