In the post I wrote, I had originally written "Were you abandoned as a child?" as the last sentence but deleted it. Coda I don't remember if I mentioned this before but Alanon and CoDa are great places to get the best free therapy anywhere. There may not be problems with alcohol in your immediate family but you were/are married to someone affected by alcohol. Give it a try.
I know it's difficult with young children but a lot of your issues are similar to that of an adult child of an alcoholic.
Stop the cycle.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss