My Story So Far. Is this even worth saving?

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I absolutely would take a lesser stress job over the money. I suffer from a heart condition that is worse from stress and I have trained as a chef. I would prefer to have my own catering operation or open my own business (which I'm aware is stressful, but what I love to do) and make less money than what I'm doing now. I just can't afford to feed, house and cloth us, as well as pay all of the bills and pay off our debt (I have my own student loan debt, too). I'm paying it off because I'm trying to make things better for the BOTH of us, but I feel really angry that I'm working so hard while he's out cheating on me.

I wouldn't mind having to work a stressful job if he were contributing and helping support us. I feel like it would be worth it if we were independent (not living with his P's) and on our own. But I do resent him for not helping me. I feel like the responsibility is all dumped on me. It's really hard.

I do enjoy aspects of my job. I'm very good at what I do, but it isn't what I love to do. I guess it would be bearable if my home like was happier. Right now it's miserable and I feel like it's harder to adapt to the stress when I have no outlet, no one to talk to and I go home and it's exactly the same thing. I feel very alone, like I don't have ANYONE to talk to. I have to suck it up, go to work and be the dependable one. Always. I'm 29. I feel like I'm 50.