I feel so bad right now, if I didn't have kids, I don't know what I'd do. No, I know what I would do. I just feel like I can't fake it anymore. I'm so tired and sick of this. I don't understand it. He is so ok with it and cold. wth, just to drop this all with such ease, I don't think h has found someone, So sick of trying to be strong. I don't know how to be positive and do all this. Maybe just having a bad nite, but starting to feel like they are all bad nites.
