11th Hour of Divorce & Trial: What Else Can I Do?

[Yasu]

Thank you for your response 25.

I believe I admitted to going off on a tangent or something similar to your previous post, so there is no need to hammer the coffin nails any deeper.

I respect you have your act together, and am humbled by the fact that you respond to me.

Please factor in the number of drugs I am on, (now including Adderall, another 150 Welbutrin, and 30 resperel). Actually, the meds have been helpful the last two days. I ask you also to factor in that I am to be on trial May 21. There is an ungodly amount of papers due on Friday - which, surprisingly, with my PA, we are on top of.

To complicate my life, I have tenants for the rental that I poured myself and my money into for the last 6 months. Now OC wants to hassle me about every dimension of the pre-lease, tenants, terms, etc.

Ok. So I went on a tagent and you pinched me on each bloody test.

Your statement that took me to the tangent (and perhaps I misunderstood) was something to the effect of the jury's potential response to performed "malingering" VS "being a jerk.". I assumed you were attributing the "malingering to me - as a win. My point is giving you some background on the actual testing for malingering was to demonstrate for you that it is never really a "Win," as you so caviliarily put it (sorry, I can't spell).

And yes, one with my training is between a rock and a hard place. I don't know if I'm providing you a reasonable understanding, or just plain defensiveness. Probably in the middle, my dear.

This is a tough time for me. I'm struggling. I have fear of the system, for the very reasons just explained. You developed a wrong impression of me. Proof is in the pudding. That is exactly my fear.