I had paperwork to take to harbormaster, so I went to my boat and had a can of soup and some tea for lunch. And I sat a read for a bit. (Had to get my moneys worth out of the money I fed the meter.) Very oddly I noticed I felt better on the boat. I pulled out my planner and made some calls, set up some appointments, read part of my current R book.
I came home to panic mode just from driving into the carport, H not due home from work for hours. And every rumbling truck that passes sets me off. I feel like I have PTSD!
I made dinner for us tonight. And that bothered me. I want to back down, but have no plan to eat with him or sit and watch TV with him. I only made dinner because I plan to eat.
He has gone dark, he doesn't tell me when he is coming home, I just cook dinner and pretty much seem to know when he is coming home. Kind of like we've been married 31 years.
I will remember the money argument. He has made his choices and needs to live with them. AND I do need to quit focusing on him......
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
