Rick you owe me no comment or nothing. I was just giving you a few things to chew on...you do owe it to yourself and your situation to go back and reread your own story from time to time (if you don't already)
I guess for me, it wasn't until well after the first year until the anger and the sense of self righteousness fully subsided. I could've thrown in the towel, but I'm sure as heck glad I didn't.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.