"i have already expressed to h that d was not an option and h could always come back."

Don't mention things like this again. He has to feel that he will lose you if he doesn't do something.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER