You might want to contact the courts regarding attempts to deliver. That way it's on record that you tried vs. having to defend yourself in court.
That is crap, AC... re: her living sitch...
Emotional back slides will happen and everyone needs their own time. Please don't own the stuff you are trying to put into your head. It's that part of the brain that tries to hold our balance in things that are moral and ethical and it's working over time. It's time to allow your defence mechanism to engage and balance it out.
Take care of yourself. Get your mind off those negative thoughts.
