Ok...i see your point Accuray. I don't intend to make this a habit for the reasons you listed...i.e., he has called S16 to have dinner without including me. Of course, S16 denied him. I am glad that the "ice" is broken with S18 though.
Update...He drove us to the airport yesterday. When we went to part, he hugged me again (after the kids) and looked down at me like he was going to kiss me goodbye and he had the saddest look in his eyes. I have cried and cried since then. It was clumsy and awkward and super weird, but I just smiled and said "see ya" while moving away. It has put me in a foul mood for this trip...that darn expectation thing. This is so painful....soo sooo sooo painful.
That said, I did email him that we arrived and are in Berlin. Hesitated to do that, but we are half way around the world and it seemed the right thing to do. He is picking us up on Sunday too.
Is this a bad idea. If my tears are an indication I say yes it is a bad idea. I don't know how to DB in a happy go lucky way and then detach again as soon as he leaves to save my sanity.
No discussions at all about anything more serious than plans, news, kids, money....so that is good.
Wrote in journal madly on train to Berlin.
He looks like he has aged in the 6 weeks since he left. He went to the cardiologist and told me all about that too. I keep repeating that verse from Romans about all things working together for good...who knows what He will use to move this relationship in one direction or the other.
Off to sight see...
Me: 44 H: 45 Married 22 S 18, S 16 Bomb 8/11, Second Bomb 1/12
