Outside the Scope of This Report Part 3

[WenikiTiki]

Hey BeingMe!

It seems he doesn't view what he is doing as peeing on my rug. Last night he told me he had a dilema. He decided he wanted to go to the St Pats party because it was folks from his office. And wants me to stay home. He said he would tell them I was busy. I told him to wrap his mouth around the words and tell people he is divorcing me.

I also told him to sit in the other room to watch tv and to quit expecting me to make his meals. He said that since I was living off his money I should contribute and do those things. I think he is a dumb-a$$.

OW is back to Arkansas for the time being. She comes back mid-June for her final divorce hearing. I think H wants our stuff to be all settled by then so he can move on to his bright new future with her.

Everything I say or do makes me the bad guy. And I see OW's hand in everything he says or does. Seriously. (His hard-earned money) I am actually looking forward toi when we go to court. I can't wait ti see the look on my H's face when he gets told bhow much alimony he gets to pay and for how long.

I keep trying to fix/repair. There is nothing left to fix/repair. He is gone, baby gone. And I think he will have to marry OW and hit rock bottom with her before he sees what he left behind.

And she will chew him up and spit him out. Just like her 1st H and her STBXH. And this is not my problem. He is in a big rush to divorce me because poor, poor OW doesn't have health insurance. And all she has to do is find some dope who is retired military to marry her and BINGO she has insurance.

I am willing to bet that he marries her within days of our D being final. And that will be the proof of what she wants. It hurts me terribly that he is under the spell of such a mean person.

And that he paints me as the bad guy. He said after what I said in the car the other day he would never go anywhere with me again. What I said was to the radio, which was playing that dumb song "Can't Find a Better Man". I said: "Bet I Can". He had said before that song was like me, I stayed because I couldn't find something better. I have stayed because I love him. Used to, am feeling the love go away.