I am watching the most beautiful sunrise over the ocean and realizing that there are so many possibilities for me. I am realizing that only I can do this for me. I owe this to my children.
I pray for my H and still love him very much. I meant my vows and still do. I just know that unless he chooses to take steps and make changes for himself to get healthy, there is nothing I can do for him.
I can only continue to pray for him.
I don't know yet what I will do, but I do know that I am forming my plan for my future and my children's future, to live the healthiest most rewarding life that I can create. Where H falls into this is completely up to him, and I have remind myself of that daily until it feels more natural I suppose
I've been DARK for a few days but will be heading home today, not sure how that will work under the same roof.
But for right now I feel good, and strong.
Such great perspective Autumn!! Just a couple days ago you were at one of your lowest points and now look ^^^. Your strength is inspiring!!
Remember this the next time you get hit w/ something and realize that no matter what happens you are strong enough to overcome and pursue the best possible life for you and your kids.
