Together Since We Were 15...Now Piecing

[Jenna333]

Thank you! We'll redo the writing.

We're going indoor mini-golfing with the kids in a couple of hours, and then we're going on a date. Not sure what we're doing yet, other than dinner. Our C told us to completely avoid heavy topics on date night. Flirt, joke around, smile! Our date nights so far have surprisingly turned to sh!t. We always end up fighting. Not tonight! I feel reassured (a little bit...I'm moving slowly here) because something seemed to thaw inside of J at breakfast after MC this morning. He said he's been cold because he's been so scared that if he puts in his whole heart and shows his vulnerability, I'll decide that this isn't what I want. I've feared the same dang thing. I'm going to try my hardest to do what I need to do to make this work.

I do struggle with the fact that OW works with him. He's a server at a restaurant and she's a hostess. We read a post on here together today about healing from infidelity (he had no idea what site it was on, as I had it on my phone and scrolled past the header). Though he didn't technically cheat, the way he went about it feels like infidelity to me. He still struggled with the A I had years ago. We have so many scars. Anyway, I think that post got him to realize that it isn't appropriate even to say hi, how are you, to her. It isn't needed, and I feel it disrespects our R.

I just hope he will decide to uphold his end of all of this. I'll have to learn to trust him.