Well Mimi...I can look back on most of this and feel I rose to the levels of the principles I chose to live by. I have some "wince" moments in this DB story too. I know I also learned from those and stayed on the high road.
You will always be able to look back on this time and KNOW that you did all that you could in the name of love for you, your w, and your kids. When your kids get older they will also be able to look back and see how amazing you were.