H came to pick up the kids on Sunday. It's my S's birthday tomorrow and I knew H and his family were planning a party for him on Sunday. It hurts to know he doesn't want me there. He doesn't talk to me about anything but little things here and there. He is always really nice to me when he sees me and even gave me a hug Sunday before he left and asked me how I was doing. I told him "I'm doing good." Trying very hard to not be the sulky, sad wife that I once was. We had more small talk and he left. I'm really struggling these last couple of days because it's been almost a month of me not pursuing or talking to him about anything and I can see that he seems happier about us but I'm still left in the dark. In the mean time, I'm starting to make myself angry about his EA and his desire to leave our religion. I'm struggling to know if this marriage is something that I TRULY want based on those things. These last couple of days have been depressing. I still do not contact him but I need to GAL but don't really know what to do...
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
