Thanks mindfull! It was a horrible night, with terrible dreams. Got up early and still a rough morning, just nausea and physical reaction. But I worked a bit this morning and then headed out to the beach with my father and his wife. Took a ton of pictures, it is warm here today. I feel so much better right now. Something about the ocean air that really helped a lot.
For the first time, possibly ever, I felt like I have choices and I am going to be ok no matter what. Nobody but me can determine what I will endure or not endure, and the direction of my life. I feel empowered but at times a bit nervous too.
I am so glad to have this break. I've checked in on my boys, and even got them a little gift to take back.
I need to make a plan, figure out the direction of the rest of my life. I will be 40 in June which is plenty young for whatever may come my way.
This could change tomorrow, so I am taking it day by day
So thankful to have such great support from family and here, even if some don't know what they are supporting
