My Story So Far. Is this even worth saving?

[timbits]

Thanks. That's exactly how I feel. I don't feel like I deserve to spend time taking care of myself. I'm better than I was (I was at the point where I stopped taking medication for a heart condition because I didn't feel I was worth it), but I find it fairly easy to backslide.

I know I need to work on myself. I called my old IC to make an appointment. She has retired, but has a replacement looking after her files. My MC also offered to refer me to someone. She told me I had to see someone as this was a lot to deal with at once. I'm just really frustrated because just when I feel things were starting to look up in other areas of my life, my M starts to fall apart, something I never thought would happen.

I need to GAL for me, not for my M.