Together Since We Were 15...Now Piecing

[Jenna333]

C was pretty unproductive. She told me I'd make a good prosecutor. I'm logical and fair, but I'm snippy, interrupt, and don't care that I'm wounding him by the tone I'm using. She saw us separately for 10mins each, and the other 40-50mins together. The C got J to realize that he respects me as a person, but he's distanced himself so much that he goes out as an escape and won't let my feelings affect it. It's also that he is immature and needs to realize that going out like that is not good for the family dynamic. He doesn't go about it in a mature way.

We went to breakfast afterward to talk and figure out whether or not we want to try to seriously make this work. He finally broke whatever shield he's had over him this entire time. He got emotional and said he doesn't want to lose me and he's scared, but he wants to do what it takes to get the love back. Our C said that we're taking every tiny thing and turning into a huge issue because we don't feel secure about the love in our R. We need to get the love back. That will foster trust and respect. He won't feel the need to escape. Neither will I.

He's going to take a break from going out. In C he said he wouldn't go out for a couple of weeks. I lost it. That's a break?! He has a lot of growing up to do.

Time will tell. We're going to try. No holding back.