Denial....its not just a river in Egypt...

[imthemom]

Went out with my girls for the first time in weeks over the weekend...and wouldnt ya know it. I met a really interesting man. Who ended up calling last night and we had the most relaxed, grown up conversation I have had in years....and he would like to take me to dinner.
I dont know how Im going to handle this ....dont really know if Im ready for anything like that, but it sure was nice to have someone just be pleasant and happy to talk to me. The only thing is Ive felt like Im doing something wrong just by talking to him...how do these men who have full on affairs do it??? Its funny all these months of dealing with the situation you almost rationalize it in your head and it gets to were you adapt to it and it doesnt seem like such a terrible thing. But feeling guilty or like Im doing something wrong just by talking to another man has made me realize how wrong it is...and how selfish and ugly it is....and what kind of person can do that with out any guilt ????
S15 spent a night with his D over the weekend (he was supose to spend the whole weekend but his D ended up canceling) and came home upset because he said that his D kept making nasty comments about me and making him feel like "crap"....I really dont understand why he feels the need to make all of this so ugly. His immaturity is so shocking to me....I really dont know him anymore at all.