DB'ing is sooooo hard (part 5)

[BFloat]

Eggs..

((((( )))))

this must be such a heartbreaking position to be in. I can only imagine the pain you must be feeling.

You have walked a tough road. And you have gained so much insight on the man and father you want to be. By clearly identifying your boundaries is another step closer in realizing what you do not want in your life or in a R.

I hesitate to say.. Ok.. Where do you go from here (when you say you are done) because you have just passed the one year mark and reading from other people's threads, it seems to be a moment where people feel it's a make it or break it moment.. But I get that you want to be done for your kids.

Maybe it's just time to shift from trying to create a supportive environment for your W (I mean, you have been with her forever so I get that commitment), to a supportive environment for your kids. Especially S13. Leave W to deal with her decisions (she's a big girl) while you focus on yours.

I don't know what the future holds for you.. But I truly feel that you deserve to receive the love you are so ready to give. One day at a time. Whether the road leads back to your S or someone new, you'll know when you get there. Take the scenic route.. There's no rush.