"I'm not a priority and that he doesn't respect me."
This comes from his immaturity. Let the emotions wash over you and stand strong. You can do this but this is the reason why I didn't think you were ready to R. Both of you were high on EMOTION. That eventually goes away. He doesn't understand what it takes to respect you.
I would suggest you actually tell him. Write it out clearly and leave nothing out about how you would like to be treated. Imagine he's the village idiot, which judging from his reaction to you - he is.
Slow things down a bit. You are at one level and he's at another. Over time things will even out, but you have to be willing to understand that it won't change overnight. It takes alot of understanding and patience on both your parts. Maybe start the ball rolling with your writing.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.