WAW told me she doesn't want to be married pt3

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VC

Thank you for the positive outlook. I will have to take more control over this and set something up when we are ready. I am looking forward to house hunting and when I can start that. Kind of feels like a rebirth in ways.

Been very busy at work and personally so I have not been on here much. When I get home I just want to sit and veg out. Especially last week. My W went to LA to visit a friend for her bday. This is the girl we are both friendly with and has stopped talking with me. Don't know. My hope was the girl would talk some sense into my W. Then I thought about it. This same girl who is a psychologist as well has had an affair with an engaged man, as well as sexting. So hello pot guess whose coming to visit kettle.
While she was gone I obviously had my kids from Wed 2/29 to Monday 3/6. We had a lot of fun. My daughters sitter had to cancel cause her own little girl had the flu. I was worried my girl would get it. Nope not till Sunday night bed time. Got her off my bed and into the doorway of my bathroom for her to splatter paint my floor. First time she ever threw up. I felt so bad. I asked my son to go up and get me a paper towels, he does what every 6 year old would do came down with 1. Sent him back up and told him what happened. My mom gave him stuff to help clean up. He went to bed, changed my girl she sat with me and we tried to watch Ralphie Mae. She drank her water and I took her to bed about 11pm. She fell asleep on her sleeping bag for me to hear her just as I went to bed at 12am throwing up all over her sleeping bag. Cleaned her up grabbed everything and it was second bath time. She slept next to me that night. I was up every time I heard her move. Posted to my facebook account about her getting sick and me putting on the super daddy cape to clean her up and take care of her. This way my wife new ahead of time so did my brother for work the next day, which I called out.
I ended up keeping my kids with me till Wednesday and my wife picked them up. I figured why drop off a sick kid, with the possibility of my son getting sick as well. Also wanted to make sure she didn't get sick in my car.
Had them again Thursday dropped off at school and sitters on Friday then my time.
Friday went to visit friends of mine I have not seen since before holidays. They sadly informed me they were pregnant and lost the baby the previous weekend. So my timing was a well deserved distraction. Saturday did my usual gym and went to a friend bday party. Met a girl there that I had a dream about that night. Nothing bad we were sitting and talking on a date. My mind telling me to move on? Or see what is out there for now? Who knows.
Sad thing is I hate being a single parent, I also hate the fact that I looked forward to sleeping in and coming home late from a night out. I am not happy that I enjoy the private time without my kids. But it makes it so much more special when I do see them.

Enough carpel tunnel for now.