Ok 2x4 time. I would not trust that you will be able to come back after your "week" away. I'm going to ask you again and I hope you will answer me this time. What is to stop your W from changing the locks when you are on your "week" away from home? Protect yourself.
Did you trust your W to be faithful? How is that working out?

I'm sorry to be blunt with you but right now you need to wake up from the fog you are in and think clearly. Right now your W is playing you like a fiddle and you are going right along with it. You need to set up boundaries. You say you are a doormat, well do something about it. Actions speak louder than words!

What do YOU want? Do YOU want to move "back home" or are you only doing this in the hopes that it will bring your W back to you? Even though you made mistakes in your M now is not the time to bend over backwards in the hopes that it will bring your W back that never works. Take the advice that we are giving. The number one thing right now is to PROTECT YOURSELF with this living arrangement. DO NOT TRUST YOUR W at this time.

M 44 W 43
S 23 S 15
INILWY 9/11
Divorce Mediation started 3/13
June 30 the day W is moving out