What Do I Do? Help!

[leopoldstotch]

Wow it's hard to believe that it's been almost two months since I last updated my sitch. Much has happened in this so I try to be brief.

About a month or more I decided it was time for me to totally detach. During that time I had known W was constantly checking my phone so I put a pass code on it and she was not happy. I also changed my FB password and that really angered her so she went into my email account and found things that really pissed her off.

I had made a few new female friends through my sister and my sister put me on a private page where it was anything goes. There was some flirting going on but never anything beyond that I haven't even met anyone in person. So naturally my W thinks the worst and just tells me that she doesn't want anything thrown in her face. Well nothing was thrown in her face as she was the one who went snooping and I have no intentions of doing anything anyway. Keep in mind that my W is still to this day saying she is saving her money and moving out but I'm now feeling that she doesn't want me and doesn't want anyone else to have me either.

At some point my sister called my house to speak to me and my W picked up the phone and the two of them had a huge blowout resulting in them never wanting to speak to one another ever again. My W did tell me that "IF" we were to ever work things out that I would not be able to have a R with my sister.

I know my W checks my phone records all the time because today she called from work with an attitude asking if I spoke to my sister and I said yes. My W is not happy about it.

The more the days go on the more I feel like I'm really becoming detached from my W and the I'm starting to see that she has control issues. As much as I need to change for ME I see that she needs to change and work on her issues. I'm no longer sure that I want to be with her I'm starting to feel like I want my freedom. Sorry this was long winded and that I haven't been up to date.